Sperm donor

I dated my ex, lets call him sperm donor. I dated SD for 4 years, right out of highschool. I was excited, he was four years older, he loved to party, his family partied. It was different then the way I had grown up. I guess when your 18 its fun to get sloppy and drunk, unfortunetly his parents are 60 and still doing it! To each is own I guess? Anywho, we had an uneventful relationship, I worked 6 days a week, he got drunk every night and showed up at my parents to sleep in their garden, drunk, unconsious. His parents went and still do go to a hole in the wall bar every night and drink themselves stupid. I found out I was pregnant, at 18.

I had always wanted kids, it never crossed my mind to think what kind of father he would be, because I knew I was going to be a great mom. I loved kids and if one was around I was caring for it. I was nurturing by nature, looking back I think I felt I could help SD, make him a better person. I miscarried Thanksgiving of 05. I went to the hospital with my parents, SD was out with friends. That SHOULD have been a red flag for me. Instead I immediantkly got pregnant again. I was so sick, everyday, all day. All I did was work and sleep. We moved into an apt and in Sept I gave birth to the most beautiful baby girl. She was 6'9oz 17in, black eyes, black hair, and had colic. Haha I thought I was loosing my mind. My mom was so helpful. She watched her when I went back to work, they have the strongest relationship. Callie adores my mother. SD and I started having issues, him getting drunk, pissing on me in my sleep, and me caring for my daughter alone was exhausting. We had bought a house in a great school district and paid out the ass for it. It needed alot of work and SD was lazy and had no ambition. My dad helped alot. When my daughter was 9mths old I found out I was having another baby, I swear I rolled into a wet dream, we never had sex!! While I was preg things got alot worse.

Eventually I found out he was seeing a married woman he worked with. I found her naked tits and face on his phone. I honestly believe if she were pretty I wouldnt have been half as mad, but the fact that she looked like her face had been smashed into cemente, crushed me. I didnt get it. And her dumbass admitted it all to me over the phone. By this time I was moved out to an apt w my daughters. I left the apt that morning, drove to our old home, left my daughters sleeping in their car seats in the driveway. When I walked into the house he was asleep in our bed. I grabbed the baseball bat behind our bedroom door and I beat the shit out of him, I think I blacked out all I can remember is going apeshit on his ass and him saying he was calling the cops. I told him he wouldnt live to call the police. The week later I printed the photo of the naked cemente face whore into 8x10s. I mailed them to her husband, mother, mother-in-law and their boss.

 After that I closed that chapter of my life. I had everything I needed, my beautiful girls, my own apartment, a great job, and great family and friends..